Friday, 7 October 2016

A Note to my Daughter


Gee's Version of Counting Stars
Oh I've been, I've been, I've been losing sleep
Because of all the things than happen to me
But me and my family we are getting on
But no more tears, we all need to get along

I see life as a catastrophe
Up and down and side to side
In my life it's a swinging vine
Up and down and side to side

Oh I've been, I've been, I've been losing sleep
Because I'm worried about my family
But I need, I need to be brave
Because they all need me in different ways

Oh I've been, I've been I've been losing sleep
Because of the things that happen to me

I found the song you wrote in your bedroom today and it made me sad, you have so much to contend with at the minute.  Your uncle is really poorly but the hospital are trying to make him better, when you ask me if he will be OK? I cannot give you the answer you need, he faces a huge battle to kill the cancer within his young body.  But be reassured that the doctors will do their best to cure him.

You started secondary school in September and this was a huge leap in the dark, you are having to face new things everyday and deal with the demons in your thoughts.  I know you find things hard but you will master these new skills.  You make me very proud, only yesterday you helped a disabled girl when others walked by, you were rewarded by school for your caring nature.  Then you stood up to girls who were ridiculing another girl with autism, you may only be small, but your strength of character and courage is something to be proud of. 

Mummy has been poorly with her back and hopefully the operation I had two weeks ago will eventually let me be a proper mum again.  We can plan walks, days out and shopping and spend some quality time together, I miss our shopping trips (although you run me ragged).  Please do not worry about me and if you do worry, come and sit with me and tell me your fears.  Do not be afraid to tell me how you feel.

I know you will always be a sensitive child and this makes you special.  You possess bucket loads of empathy towards other people and always show compassion for others around you. You are a beautiful girl inside and out and although you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders, please do not let this spoil your day to day life.  Talk to me, cry on me and let me help you through the tough times.  Love you always to the moon and back Gee xxx

Love Mummy


12 comments:

  1. I'm really impressed. She's a talented one. I guess you could say that at least she has a way of letting her worries out in a very creative and beautiful way. Hope things get better!

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  2. Oh what a loving girl she is.
    I am so sorry to hear of her Uncle's illness sending love and thoughts for his recovery. And I hope you are getting there after your op x

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  3. I've read about Gee's struggles on your blog before but this post really resonates with me. I was exactly like her as a kid, even with the rewriting song lyrics and feeling so deeply. I have had mental health problems, including OCD, since I was a child so I know exactly how she feels. Its heartbreaking to me to think of a child going through something that can bring adults to breaking point. What I want to do is commend you for your unbelievable support for her and tell you how much a difference that makes. I wish I'd had someone to talk to when I was growing. Knowing that there is someone there who will listen to everything and anything is the greatest thing you can do. She is a special kid and I hope she has a remarkable life. I found my husband and my whole life changed for the better and I've achieved things I never thought I could. Well done for being a good mum.

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  4. This is beyond beautiful! Thanks for sharing this lovely part of your heart!

    Ana
    The She Approach

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  5. Aww bless. Such a lovely post. She is so caring. My daughter has just gone to big school too. It is a big and emotional step. Then with everything else on top. Hope her uncle recovers soon and you are recovering well after your operation too Cathy ..

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  6. This is a lovely post. Your daughter is a creative one.

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  7. Aww bless her. Being sensitive can be such a lovely thing but such a curse too - this is coming from someone who would describe themselves as being 'overly sensitive'. I hope you recover from your back operation and get to do all the things you want to with your sweet girl once again. I also hope her uncle recovers from cancer <3

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  8. This is lovely. my son is a sensitive soul with a very caring nature too.

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  9. This is so sweet and she does express herself incredibly well x

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  10. She is a very talented young lady. I imagine she will go into a caring profession when she is older, but for now it looks as though you will be her strength xx

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  11. Oh this is such a sweet and lovely post! She is very talented.

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