We take things for granted, that's for certain.
Life especially, I think we get to a point in life where we start to regret things we haven't done or achieved. Not my nan, she's a power-house. She's never really spoken about her life, not naming her achievements but she shows her love of her family and I think that's a huge achievement for her. She has never taken anything in her life for granted, making sure every moment she spends with me and my siblings was the best time. Filling it full of memories.
I have definitely been taking things for granted. The worst thing for me right now is taking my Nan for granted, since she's been so amazing with sharing her life with me, I really don't think I've done enough in the past years to do the same for her. She's in her late 80's now and has just recently (the past 5 months or so) been suffering with the symptoms of Alzheimers. It's only just hitting home that we're losing her but I don't think I'll get into that just yet, maybe another time, on my blog. It's only now that we, or at least I, have started understanding that she won't be herself anymore.
We're already losing her, day by day and I think it's this picture in particular that reminds me of everything we've ever done together, who she is, or was, as a person. As my Nan.
This picture means the world to me. In conversation about grandparents or even just thinking about her in day-to-day life. I don't think of her face, I think of this picture.
She's with my dad her, it looks like a deep conversation but knowing them both you can see what she's hiding. She has this look on her face, as though she's hiding a smile. It could be the most serious conversation in the world but if there are kids around she'll pull faces and make everyone feel involved. Sometimes just for her own amusement!
That's her to a Tee, she's a very strong woman is my nan. Very prim and proper, she should've been a teacher. She would keep us in a routine, enforce cleaning and house hold rules, but we never felt unhappy. Everything was fun when we were growing up. She was an absolute riot when she was with family or at home, honestly the most entertaining and energetic 60-88-year-old you will ever meet.
This picture was taken when I was around 12 years old. We had been taking her to Butlins since I was around 6 and at the time of this picture it was probably one of the last times we could take her. Perhaps 2 or 3 times a year we'd take an hour drive to her house and then a four-hour drive to see Mr Butlins, those were the years. We'd have an apartment with nan by ourselves and mom and dad would get there own (I understand why now). I don't remember much of what we did, whilst away, only that each morning I would wake up early and sneak into her room for a morning cuddle and some fruit before heading off for our breakfast.
Eventually the walking and long drives became too hard for her and our family holidays weren't the same without her with us. We still have those memories and this photograph reminds me that she was a very active woman, even with young children she was running around and swimming way into her 80's. More than that though she was never angry or upset with being around 3 very young children, I never once felt like she was frustrated with us. She never displayed anything other than love, all equal!
This photo really sums her up, she is a modest woman. Standing in a theme park without her walking stick because she wants to keep the kids happy. Screw how tired she must've been, we went on those roller coasters until we were dizzy.
National Grandparents day has been and gone, but why isn't every day a celebration of your loved ones? Do you have a favourite photo of a loved one? What memories does it bring back?
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with my readers Amy. I think you will agree her Nan sounds like a really special lady. If you would like to say hello to Amy on her social media sites you can find her on twitter, facebook and pinterest.